Restlessness

I am feeling ridiculous today. No particular reason. Just the way life works. It's half past 1 in the wee hours of the morning and I am still awake. You can imagine how restless I am feeling. A dear friend of mine tried calming me for quite some time. It did help but the restlessness soon returned. I thought I would call it a day but somehow felt I had to scribble something today, just to etch the memory in ink – maybe in bytes, now that its digital.
It all started with me thinking of the road ahead. As I woke up in the morning, I began visualizing myself into the future and what I saw was depressing. I didn't want that to happen. And for that not to happen, I had to make something else happen. This precisely was what was making me restless.
One could look at life in two ways – "live your life" or "enliven your life". I see both very distinctly. In the first way, you accept life as it comes, as they say- make the most of now. In the second case, you take control and let life do things the way you want it to. And with every passing day, I realize how hard the second way is.
I am not arguing for any of the ways to be better than the other. What's ultimately important is for one to feel happy and of course the end result of what you do with your life.
For long, I have taken my life granted. Thanks to my father, I've been blessed with great schooling. Thanks to that and partly also to my uncle, I got into a good college with the least trouble. Thanks to my college, I got a job as soon as I was out of it. All the while, there was no struggle. Only comfort. Only luxury; unhindered smoothness; no problems whatsoever till now. And now I realize the need for some real hard work. Not the study hard and get good marks type hard work. But a bigger one; I realize I've been blessed with so much that it would be cruel to turn a blind eye to all of that and lead the life as its taking me. I believe its well within my command to alter the flow of my life, of course with the blessings of the almighty. And what pisses me off is the way I am taking things forward.
The world is increasingly getting flattened, but I am sitting here without even acknowledging it. Stock markets are dancing to the madness of people but I choose not to bother. There are forces and opportunities everywhere. Only that my head is not waking up. There was a time when raw power ruled. When the only ingredient to success in life was either your heredity or your muscle power; but today, ideas can revolutionize things. And now that the economies all over have taken a correction from the absurd growth rates, sanity should prevail and opportunities will be galore. Like what air Deccan chief said, recession is the best time to get things started.
In the new world with google and amazon and e-bay, things should not be hard to find or buy. It's just a click away. The right amount of thinking should take us places. And if you are reading this, I believe you also have it in you to make a difference to your life. To take advantage of it is well within our control. To execute it to perfection will depend on our passion and our own desire to experience success.
Let's toast it that then. To success in all forms of life: D
Now, I feel slightly better as well… and the clock has just struck 2. I'll go and get some sleep now.